It's Christmas time...

That's what the calendar says at least. Working in retail though I often find that the only joy people get around this time is when they make it home after fighting the madness of the mall. So this is the first Christmas in my entire life that I won't be with my parents, brothers, or any combination of the above on Christmas day (once again, thank you retail). It's kind of a different feeling. I'm 21, but still I don't know if I was ready for this day to come. I'm going to wake-up Christmas day with people to hang out with (which I'm very very thankful for), but it will still be different.

I'm thinking of staying up all night the night of the 24th and staking out for St. Nick. After all of these years I'm going to catch him. Really all I want is a ride around Ft. Worth on the sleigh. I figure this can be arranged because I live east of Ft. Worth and it's only logical for Santa to work east to west. Wow, that was an odd ramble...

Everything that is Good

I absolutely love LaDainian Tomlinson. Not only is he amazing to watch; not only did he graduate from TCU; not only did he grow up close to Waco, TX (a nostalgic place for me); he's all that is good in the NFL. I know, I know, everybody has pointed out already how when he scores a touchdown he simply hands the ball the the referee and is on his way.





That's not the only thing that impresses me about this guy. In a recent quote about his record 28 touchdowns this season he described the celebration afterward. I couldn't find the exact quote anywhere, but here's the gist of it. After the touchdown he gathered the entire offensive unit in the endzone to celebrate. This celebration wasn't anything gaudy or flamboyant either. They lifted LT over their heads and he gave each of them a congratulatory head slap. After the game when he was asked about it LT said that he called all of the people over to celebrate what they had done. I don't know if you caught that. He called them over to celebrate what they had done. Not what he had done, what they had done. This blew my mind. Most people that you come across in the NFL whine and cry because they don't receive enough touches in the game, or because they had a call go against them. They even complain because of what another teammate isn't doing. LT had the perfect opportunity to absorb every bit of spotlight that there was to absorb and he called everyone over for the party. Go LT...i love you

decisions and misdecisions

So I believe it is tradition now for me to preface every blog with..."man I'm terrible at keeping up with these things"

Now that that is out of the way we can continue.

So have you ever had to make a decision that you really didn't want to make, but you knew that it was one that needed to be made? Those decisions are no fun...at all. These are the things that you pray about, and when you get your answer you argue with God on his logic. How could doing something that sucks so bad right now be better for the future? I don't understand, which makes it hard for me to explain to people, which makes it even worse. I try and do my best to follow God's plan for my life, but there are times (many times) where I feel inadequate to carry out the call on my life. I'm going on blind faith here, but how am I suppose to know where the line is drawn between my inner feelings and God's push in the right direction? I'm just hoping I haven't completely screwed everything up (that's probably my biggest fear).

...pray, that's all I can do