Thoughts from the Futon

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Lord, hear my prayers...

"Cry Mercy" - David Crowder Band

"Be Near" - Shane and Shane

"Put Me Back Together" - Alex Cramer

"Julie" - Shane and Shane

"Unfailing Love" - Chris Tomlin

"Obsession" - David Crowder Band

"Prodigal Me" - Shane and Shane

"Come Home Running" - Chris Tomlin

"May the Words of My Mouth" - Shane and Shane

Monday, January 22, 2007

this is not the end

Hi, my name is David and I'm the biggest screw-up in the world (or at least I feel like that right now).

I had the greatest thing in life going for me, love, and I thought I needed more at one time. As of late I know that this is all I need from someone. I had it in abundance and I took it for granted. I don't do that anymore. We don't find love in many places, especially this kind of love.

I can't help but feel right now that I lost everything. I messed up...bad.

This love means more to me than anything else on earth.

I must confess to everyone out there who reads this. I am not the same that I was last semester. Last semester was a lie. I wasn't the person God called me to be, and I wasn't the person that deserves the kind of love he had. I am not that person anymore. I am in the process of trying to make my amends to God and hopefully regain the trust and love that I need.

Those of you who know my situation know that I had a great thing. I'm sorry that I blew it this time. It won't happen again. I can't help but believe that there will be an 'again'. Something that powerful can't go away. I won't let it.

I love you

I'm sorry